It's my first time being a daughter and an older sister, and I don't know what to do.
My parents would always tell me to do things for my younger siblings - help them with their homework, teach them how to do things, such as preparing rice to cook, preparing simple meals, and others. There are instances when I always tell my siblings what's right and what's wrong. I actually love teaching and guiding my siblings to do such things, but there are times when I think about myself. Who's going to teach and guide the older sibling? Who's going to tell the older sibling what's right and what's wrong?
Our parents would sometimes force me to give up things and give them to my younger sibling. That hurts a little, but I couldn't hate them as well. With that, I learned to give up things for others.
As the duty of being an older sister became heavier, I think I also learned to be more tough. I taught myself to be strong enough to be able to guide my siblings. But maybe being that tough person also affected my attitude. My siblings would always complain about how irritated I was with such things. I actually feel sorry about it, though.
I'm sorry if I get irritated easily by the thing you ask. Maybe I get too sensitive when people ask me redundant questions.
I'm sorry if I get annoyed easily when you're just asking me how to do things. Maybe I am just tired of figuring things out by myself.
I'm sorry if I refrained myself from being nice when you always treat me with so much love.
All I wanted was to feel that I don't carry the burden of being an older sibling, even for quite a little moment.
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